我知道我很久没有更新了
但是这只是我的“副”部落格
况且我的“正”部落格都不是很时常更新
这段日子里发生的是真得太多太多了
突然很想念君仪、俊俐他们
因为和他们有的是美好的回忆
真得很想回到以前的日子
我是个很怀旧的人
can't help it
不懂要说什么了
其实有很多很多要讲的
但是因为一些局限
不敢写太多
就这样
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I've been feeling rather emo lately. Yea, emo's the right word, or perhaps, moody suits too. I've never thought of desribing myself this way, but that was exactly how I've been acting recently. Moody.
My heart is pounding, loud and fast, right now, while I'm writing this post. Usually this sentence links to the lovey-dovey romance stuffs, but not now. My heart is filled with conflicting emotions; I don't know what I'm feeling. I've been seeing and noticing many things which rose my wrath and hatred these past few days. It's all because of this particular person. I actually disliked her more than Point 11, after what point 11 said about me. Once, for the first time in my life, I felt like calling someone a 'b!tch'. She didn't exactly do anything to me though I knew she didn't like me. But, of all people, things she did caught my attention though they had nothing to do with me, causing me to suffer from my own wrath against her. How I wished I could slap her and torment her all I want; how I wished I could tell tales (which were true) on her without upsetting other people. Why do I even bother about her? I ask myself. I don't know, is my answer. Things she does irritates me, her attitute annoys me (though I have a bad attitute myself), the way she dresses is an eyesore to me; everything about her causes my hatred. But still, I control my feelings around her, suppressing them, keeping everything to myself, and in the end, hurting no one, but myself. It's too bad, just so bad, that I have to keep up with her; I can't afford earning myself another enemy. I know she's a wolf in sheep's skin, but at least, she's just that. I don't want another one who opposes me directly. I've suffered too much.
LY's note was a comfort. Knowing that she still cared about me and remembered me to be her bao was good. Very good. But not good enough to relieve me from all my problems. I yearned to tell her everything, exactly everything, but I just can't bring myself to do that. I don't know what consequence it would bring if I told her everything on my mind. Her power to affect the whole situation is just too big.
I don't know who to confide to right now. My BFFs might listen, but I know they wouldn't completely agree with me. I know it's rather selfish to want other people to agree with my thoughts, but that's what I want right now. LY will agree with me, I know that. But like I said, I can't afford to bear the consequence of confiding in to her (if it's bad, which is most likely to be).
I lost my refuge. I resent the fact about some people knowing my blog address. My blog is my only refuge (I don't keep a diary), and I lost it. You can't blame me for being emo, I lost my one and only refuge...
Previously feeling: EMO
Currently feeling: EMO
Predict feeling: EMO... in days to come.
p/s I actually know what I'm feeling apart from emo. Boiling anger.
*****
The above is supposed to be posted in XANGA, but Xanga was having technical problems and was loading so slow that I got impatient. I might consider switching from Xanga to Blogger. But my bond with Xanga is deep (not sure if it's the right adjective to describe bonds). 999 days is not a small number.
My heart is pounding, loud and fast, right now, while I'm writing this post. Usually this sentence links to the lovey-dovey romance stuffs, but not now. My heart is filled with conflicting emotions; I don't know what I'm feeling. I've been seeing and noticing many things which rose my wrath and hatred these past few days. It's all because of this particular person. I actually disliked her more than Point 11, after what point 11 said about me. Once, for the first time in my life, I felt like calling someone a 'b!tch'. She didn't exactly do anything to me though I knew she didn't like me. But, of all people, things she did caught my attention though they had nothing to do with me, causing me to suffer from my own wrath against her. How I wished I could slap her and torment her all I want; how I wished I could tell tales (which were true) on her without upsetting other people. Why do I even bother about her? I ask myself. I don't know, is my answer. Things she does irritates me, her attitute annoys me (though I have a bad attitute myself), the way she dresses is an eyesore to me; everything about her causes my hatred. But still, I control my feelings around her, suppressing them, keeping everything to myself, and in the end, hurting no one, but myself. It's too bad, just so bad, that I have to keep up with her; I can't afford earning myself another enemy. I know she's a wolf in sheep's skin, but at least, she's just that. I don't want another one who opposes me directly. I've suffered too much.
LY's note was a comfort. Knowing that she still cared about me and remembered me to be her bao was good. Very good. But not good enough to relieve me from all my problems. I yearned to tell her everything, exactly everything, but I just can't bring myself to do that. I don't know what consequence it would bring if I told her everything on my mind. Her power to affect the whole situation is just too big.
I don't know who to confide to right now. My BFFs might listen, but I know they wouldn't completely agree with me. I know it's rather selfish to want other people to agree with my thoughts, but that's what I want right now. LY will agree with me, I know that. But like I said, I can't afford to bear the consequence of confiding in to her (if it's bad, which is most likely to be).
I lost my refuge. I resent the fact about some people knowing my blog address. My blog is my only refuge (I don't keep a diary), and I lost it. You can't blame me for being emo, I lost my one and only refuge...
Previously feeling: EMO
Currently feeling: EMO
Predict feeling: EMO... in days to come.
p/s I actually know what I'm feeling apart from emo. Boiling anger.
*****
The above is supposed to be posted in XANGA, but Xanga was having technical problems and was loading so slow that I got impatient. I might consider switching from Xanga to Blogger. But my bond with Xanga is deep (not sure if it's the right adjective to describe bonds). 999 days is not a small number.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
吴蕙如老师
（just added the 老师 for the sake of being polite in case someone from school read this)
写着那篇准备要去投稿的散文
就很不爽她
不是真正讨厌她
只是我觉得态度有点不对
她没有看过我写的文章
就选我参加投稿比赛
华文创作根本不是我的强项
叫我写一篇英文的
我勉勉强强可以接受
华文的我怎么可以？
你懂她怎样approach我吗？
她就这样：
听说你去年是全级第一哦……
她那样我就已经很反感了
我跟她讲我不是华文好
是其他科目拉高我的总平均而已
你觉得她会听没有？
ugh
蛮disgusted的咯
don't even want to talk about it anymore
it's worst than writing a commonwealth essay...
（just added the 老师 for the sake of being polite in case someone from school read this)
写着那篇准备要去投稿的散文
就很不爽她
不是真正讨厌她
只是我觉得态度有点不对
她没有看过我写的文章
就选我参加投稿比赛
华文创作根本不是我的强项
叫我写一篇英文的
我勉勉强强可以接受
华文的我怎么可以？
你懂她怎样approach我吗？
她就这样：
听说你去年是全级第一哦……
她那样我就已经很反感了
我跟她讲我不是华文好
是其他科目拉高我的总平均而已
你觉得她会听没有？
ugh
蛮disgusted的咯
don't even want to talk about it anymore
it's worst than writing a commonwealth essay...
Sunday, January 4, 2009
被丽莹点了
现在几点：下午三时十五分
你的全名：颜郁琳
你现在正在听谁的歌：David Archuleta
你在哪里读书(工作)：坤成
你最后吃的一样东西是什么：猪肠粉
现在天气如何：有点乌云
戴隐形眼镜吗：没有
上一次生日蛋糕上蜡烛的数目：忘记了，超过四年没吃生日蛋糕了咯
你通常吹熄这些蜡烛的日期：都讲很久没吹蜡烛了……
你家养过什么：金鱼、乌龟、小猫（全都给我养死了 T.T）
兄弟姐妹跟他们的年紀：妹妹~12岁（2009年）
眼珠颜色：黑色
耳朵有几个洞：还没打洞
有刺青吗：没有
喜欢你目前的生活吗：还不错
出生地：PJ（跟丽莹一样耶）
目前居住地：KL
喝过酒吗：喝过红酒（超级难喝）
觉得自己花心吗：蛮XD
曾经出过车祸吗：没有
暗恋过人吗：有
不敢跟人告白吗：不敢
喜欢吃什么东西：很多耶，贵贵的食物……XD
喜欢喝什么：蜜糖+苹果醋
最喜欢的颜色：天蓝
喜欢的数字：4 （虽然华人认为不吉利）
喜欢看哪一种的电影：令人感动的~
最喜欢的卡通人物或品牌：Barbie （没有想到叻……=P）
最怀念的日子：和好朋友在一起的日子
最伤心的日子：感觉被朋友抛弃的时候
喜欢的花：不懂得欣赏花~
最怕遇到的人：罗罗嗦嗦的人
喜欢的运动：游泳（我好像只会游泳）
喜欢的冰淇淋种类：Dark, bitter chocolate
最怕什么东西：昆虫
喜欢看的电视台：301, 302, 311, 314, 615, 708 （astro的频道）
如果有来世，你最想当：美女 XD
讨厌做的事：受人摆布去做的事
讨厌別人做什么：命令我
擅长的事：不懂
上次上医院是什么时候：唯一一次入院的时候
以后想做什么职业：我的兴趣+可以赚大钱（问题是我还不懂我的兴趣是啥=.=）
你觉得自己十年后会在哪里：在现在在的地方
无聊的是候你大多做些什么：看电视
世上最恼人的事：目前想不到……
全世界最好的事：什么东西都顺我意
目前有男(女)友吗：没有
沒把握的事情态度如何：战战兢兢的做
如果有人误会你，你会：解释（我才没酱笨给人误会）
如果有人误会你，又不听你的解释：难过，继续找机会解释
有想过要怎么对付你讨厌的人吗：想过，但做不出
你认为你的另一半帮你付钱是理所当然的吗：是滴
你猜谁会最先回这封信：不懂
你寄這封邮件的谁最不可能回复：不懂
现在心里最想念的人是谁：才不告诉你 ;P
要几岁结婚：20-30岁之间
依你心里的觉得重要度先后排列：食物 洗澡 大便
今天心情好吗：很兴奋~明天就开学了……
有想过要自杀吗：没有
希望谁回信：美贤、欧倪
你的全名：颜郁琳
你现在正在听谁的歌：David Archuleta
你在哪里读书(工作)：坤成
你最后吃的一样东西是什么：猪肠粉
现在天气如何：有点乌云
戴隐形眼镜吗：没有
上一次生日蛋糕上蜡烛的数目：忘记了，超过四年没吃生日蛋糕了咯
你通常吹熄这些蜡烛的日期：都讲很久没吹蜡烛了……
你家养过什么：金鱼、乌龟、小猫（全都给我养死了 T.T）
兄弟姐妹跟他们的年紀：妹妹~12岁（2009年）
眼珠颜色：黑色
耳朵有几个洞：还没打洞
有刺青吗：没有
喜欢你目前的生活吗：还不错
出生地：PJ（跟丽莹一样耶）
目前居住地：KL
喝过酒吗：喝过红酒（超级难喝）
觉得自己花心吗：蛮XD
曾经出过车祸吗：没有
暗恋过人吗：有
不敢跟人告白吗：不敢
喜欢吃什么东西：很多耶，贵贵的食物……XD
喜欢喝什么：蜜糖+苹果醋
最喜欢的颜色：天蓝
喜欢的数字：4 （虽然华人认为不吉利）
喜欢看哪一种的电影：令人感动的~
最喜欢的卡通人物或品牌：Barbie （没有想到叻……=P）
最怀念的日子：和好朋友在一起的日子
最伤心的日子：感觉被朋友抛弃的时候
喜欢的花：不懂得欣赏花~
最怕遇到的人：罗罗嗦嗦的人
喜欢的运动：游泳（我好像只会游泳）
喜欢的冰淇淋种类：Dark, bitter chocolate
最怕什么东西：昆虫
喜欢看的电视台：301, 302, 311, 314, 615, 708 （astro的频道）
如果有来世，你最想当：美女 XD
讨厌做的事：受人摆布去做的事
讨厌別人做什么：命令我
擅长的事：不懂
上次上医院是什么时候：唯一一次入院的时候
以后想做什么职业：我的兴趣+可以赚大钱（问题是我还不懂我的兴趣是啥=.=）
你觉得自己十年后会在哪里：在现在在的地方
无聊的是候你大多做些什么：看电视
世上最恼人的事：目前想不到……
全世界最好的事：什么东西都顺我意
目前有男(女)友吗：没有
沒把握的事情态度如何：战战兢兢的做
如果有人误会你，你会：解释（我才没酱笨给人误会）
如果有人误会你，又不听你的解释：难过，继续找机会解释
有想过要怎么对付你讨厌的人吗：想过，但做不出
你认为你的另一半帮你付钱是理所当然的吗：是滴
你猜谁会最先回这封信：不懂
你寄這封邮件的谁最不可能回复：不懂
现在心里最想念的人是谁：才不告诉你 ;P
要几岁结婚：20-30岁之间
依你心里的觉得重要度先后排列：食物 洗澡 大便
今天心情好吗：很兴奋~明天就开学了……
有想过要自杀吗：没有
希望谁回信：美贤、欧倪
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